Thursday, March 17, 2011

Don't wake up!! Just got home and wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you.

So I must share this story about what my friend told me yesterday. She was telling me that she had run out of clean underwear and was wearing her sons briefs. I'm just so blow away. Has anyone out there done this?
Lonely is really the word of the day though. Blah on my route until I reached my one account that just so happens to be a bar. The owner first asked me where my green is and I say "my underwear is green" then he gives me some green beads. Then the Grill Chef was dressed up as a leprechaun. He did a pretty good job too. Then Tammi the bartender asks if i want a lei. So she throws one of those over my head. Then Gabe gives me a t-shirt for Tullamore Dew. And of course they are all trying to get me to take a shot but no way would I do that while I'm working. They know it too. They had to be the funnest part of my whole day for sure.
Struggling to let go.
I've held others before,
But it was never like this,
Where my body inhales you
And quivers with bliss,
Where my senses are reeling
From the strength of desire,
And if I can't have you soon,
I'll be consumed by the fire.
By Karl Fuchs

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

I'm like a bird, I only fly away


Kinda feeling like I tired of trying to figure everything out lately. I saw my therapist on Monday. He was pretty cool. Very Dr. Phil-ish. Just asking tough questions that I really did need to hear.
I guess I'm not saying that I giving up, I'm just done trying to do it by myself. I've decided that I'm not changing anything in my life with out discussing every option first, till I can't see any other way.
I read this cute story about a guy who was telling God that everyone else had it better, so God had all these people who felt the same way put all there problems into a bag and drop it by the door. Then he told that guy to chose any bag he wanted. Of course he picked his own bag and so did everyone else.
I think if you think about it, I bet you would too.

Your faith in me brings me to tears
Even after all these years
And it pains me so much to tell
That you don't know me that well


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Six feet under scream

Friday I was hopping along on my route feeling pretty sorry for myself as usual. With only 2 more stops to go. I started talk to one of my customers, Beth. She was showing me that her date on her phone always resets to Dec 31, 1969. I really didn't have an answer for her other than, maybe the person that wrote the software was born on that date. And then I commented on how it was weird that they pick the very last day of 1969.
She laughed and said that she was a junior in high school in 1969 and I said how it makes me think of that song "Summer of 1969" Then we went on to talk about iPods and then Kindle's. As soon as she found out that I liked to read. She started suggesting books to me. One was by Nicholas Sparks. About a Mother that dies and leaves behind her husband and children. In this book the woman writes a letter to her husbands future wife.
Beth then tells me that it reminds her of her daughter Amy that passed away last January. She too has left behind 2 daughters and a husband. Amy also wrote a letter to her husbands future wife.
Oh how my heart broke right then and there. I've been servicing this account for well over a year and I had no idea that she was going thru such a painful experience. See how quickly I have turned this around to me and how I feel.
I said to Beth "So she must have had plenty of time to prepare since she wrote that letter?" She said that Amy had a melanoma removed from her back 10 years ago and they didn't think much of it.Amy went off to college, married and bought the house right next door to her parents house.
Then she found out that she had a brain tumor and the doctors told her she had 6-12 months to live. She lived 8.
Her daughters are 3 and 7 now. Her husband has met someone but she has not read the "letter". I think that letter will find her just at the right time. Just how that book found Beth and Amy's story found me and now she lives on thru you too.

But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the Fourth of July



Monday, March 14, 2011

smart, beautiful, strong, you're not supposed to stay

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Saturday, March 5, 2011

When construction workers direct me to drive on the opposite side of the road, I pretend...

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